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zinkrWhere were we? I like it so much better when I post everyday. The words come a lot easier.
Transitions are so hard. I'm constantly feeling like my entire life is one big transition. I suppose that is part of living. Growing and changing and facing challenges. I read this article yesterday about unhappy people always living in the past and blaming others for their failures. While I am not entirely unhappy, I do think I wallow a bit. Okay, a lot. It hasn't really helped me at all so why have I made my life harder by doing it? It's comfortable, I suppose. I don't have to face anything crazy or do anything for real if I just blame everything on my past. Whatever. Done. The wonderful thing about realizing the bullshit you have been putting on yourself is that you get to do something about it.
I have been very fortunate to have had a lot of photography gigs over the last two months. I'm finalizing my last one today. I'll be teaching a yoga workshop tomorrow and then all my jobs are done. Terrifying! Since Winter is slow for photography I'm going to start focusing on cotton candy. My thinking is do photo work while the season is busy and do cotton candy when it's not. Yoga will always be a constant since it's not dictated by weather.
Phoenix. I have been extremely negative and bitter about this move. I hate being told what to do, and I have been having some kind of 2 year old temper tantrum to it. It hasn't been pretty. For real, ugly crying kind of situation. Izaak has been so wonderful and tolerant of it all when really he could have been.....not so tolerant. I am working my way through it because Silas wants to go and I want to be with Izaak. I realize poor me has to move to somewhere warm and pretty and lots of interesting things. It's ridiculous my reaction but one of my strengths is adaptability. :)
Transitions are so hard. I'm constantly feeling like my entire life is one big transition. I suppose that is part of living. Growing and changing and facing challenges. I read this article yesterday about unhappy people always living in the past and blaming others for their failures. While I am not entirely unhappy, I do think I wallow a bit. Okay, a lot. It hasn't really helped me at all so why have I made my life harder by doing it? It's comfortable, I suppose. I don't have to face anything crazy or do anything for real if I just blame everything on my past. Whatever. Done. The wonderful thing about realizing the bullshit you have been putting on yourself is that you get to do something about it.
I have been very fortunate to have had a lot of photography gigs over the last two months. I'm finalizing my last one today. I'll be teaching a yoga workshop tomorrow and then all my jobs are done. Terrifying! Since Winter is slow for photography I'm going to start focusing on cotton candy. My thinking is do photo work while the season is busy and do cotton candy when it's not. Yoga will always be a constant since it's not dictated by weather.
Phoenix. I have been extremely negative and bitter about this move. I hate being told what to do, and I have been having some kind of 2 year old temper tantrum to it. It hasn't been pretty. For real, ugly crying kind of situation. Izaak has been so wonderful and tolerant of it all when really he could have been.....not so tolerant. I am working my way through it because Silas wants to go and I want to be with Izaak. I realize poor me has to move to somewhere warm and pretty and lots of interesting things. It's ridiculous my reaction but one of my strengths is adaptability. :)
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Date: 2014-11-21 03:57 pm (UTC)Will Ethan go too?
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Date: 2014-11-23 10:37 pm (UTC)Saw your pics a few wks ago.
I grew up in Scottsdale and then went to college at ASU and NAU. But there wasn't enough professional theatre in AZ to keep me in my beloved home state.
Phx IS completely spread out, you are right. Even Scottsdale is now, it's ridiculous, and there's no public transport on the level of what we have in midwest. Takes forever to get across town so I guess you learn to plan accordingly or maybe don't go across town? I don't know but that would really be a drag for me too.
Where will you live?
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